What I have realized in the last couple of days is that you cannot take those pains into such a new phase of life. They are not only in the past but separated by an expanse of new information and a new you. No matter how hard you hold on to an old break up or scar of similar kind - and we all do, no matter how much we tell ourselves that we really want to let go, you cannot help but be faced with the world that sees that as a long forgotten moment - inconsequential to the present that is so full of rich possibilities. Things can remind us of what came before but it cannot strike again, not in this world that is so different and rife with its own dangers. We cannot survive such pain as is to come if we bear it alongside that that has passed. We feel like both are one in the same, however, when they are not. Every new person holds a whole world, and no matter how similar their story could be to one that you have heard before it is different in just as many ways. A person doesn't ever have faith in relationships, love, or anything of the kind, they have faith in each person that they let into their life. If someone hurts you when you let them get that close, that is something that they alone decided. Broken trust - or broken faith - is something beautiful truly lost, but it is broken only for that person. Sometimes the only way to love again is to find the one you can trust in and believe in when you feel like you can't anymore.
I know that I'm a day late, but hey, it's my first week here in beautiful Rochester New York! This week has been extremely busy, but I am still here so that you guys can keep up with the times. The University is perfect for what I was after, and I am happy to say that the next for years could be the best yet for Heinz. All procrastination and laziness aside, this year's schedule has many good things in store, including the possibility of adding German to the languages Heinz has available. I have met a few different people so far, and there are many more that I do not know, but what people can have in common is somewhat astounding. A TV show or hobby can break the ice between two people, and an hour's time can make friends of them. An afternoon can see them sharing stories and pains of the past.
What I have realized in the last couple of days is that you cannot take those pains into such a new phase of life. They are not only in the past but separated by an expanse of new information and a new you. No matter how hard you hold on to an old break up or scar of similar kind - and we all do, no matter how much we tell ourselves that we really want to let go, you cannot help but be faced with the world that sees that as a long forgotten moment - inconsequential to the present that is so full of rich possibilities. Things can remind us of what came before but it cannot strike again, not in this world that is so different and rife with its own dangers. We cannot survive such pain as is to come if we bear it alongside that that has passed. We feel like both are one in the same, however, when they are not. Every new person holds a whole world, and no matter how similar their story could be to one that you have heard before it is different in just as many ways. A person doesn't ever have faith in relationships, love, or anything of the kind, they have faith in each person that they let into their life. If someone hurts you when you let them get that close, that is something that they alone decided. Broken trust - or broken faith - is something beautiful truly lost, but it is broken only for that person. Sometimes the only way to love again is to find the one you can trust in and believe in when you feel like you can't anymore.
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Dewey Drifter
9/15/2014 11:15:46 am
Very deep bro. I hope life accommodates your experiences and welcomes you as it would any natural occurance.
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Jonathan Heinz
9/15/2014 05:04:22 pm
Are you saying that I am a natural occurrence?
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