As I sit down here at my computer again tonight, for the fifth and last time of this marathon, it brings my mind to consider why I am carrying out something that I decided on a long time ago and that I might not even have the words to complete. Why am I bound by what an old version of me, one not burdened with the fatigue of late night after late night, thought? This very question is the end of all those grand New Year's resolutions that we make every year, that and the lightning speed of things slipping the mind. The question creates a conflict in our minds, a conflict between what we want and what we need. But that's not completely accurate; we never know exactly what we need so it is a conflict more between want and something that tries to hold to responsibility and to do what is best in the long run. Let us call them Forethought and Impulse, the spirits of thinking ahead and of living in the moment. The problem with resolutions is that Forethought is the thinker and Impulse is the doer. Motivation is when they agree and the stars align and we get things done; procrastination exists, not simply when they disagree, but when they disagree and the power lays in the hands of impulse. The people that put who put their life eternally into the hands of Forethought, however are those who get their work done and keep everything in order right up until the moment that the stress forces them to change something. The clicé is that we obviously need balance, but most people fall into daily life and let Impulse handle social interaction and activities and forget to let Forethought carry out its plans. Is there a way, then, to take the decision out of the automatic hands of Impulse and weigh it between the two? One way, the one that has worked rather well for me recently, is to put the analogy to an extreme and try to visualize the two ideas of Impulse and Forethought as two separate people so that they can present your views on either side and discuss it; it doesn't have to be that hard, though. Just noticing that you need to take the time to really think about upholding or abandoning resolutions and making a situation where sleep or other things do not sway the decision already sets the foundation for a much better decision. For my part, I'm incredibly glad that I stuck to posting this week. For all of your's, I hope the reminders weren't too annoying. Thanks for stopping by, and you stay classy.